Endings

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Every ending is different. 

Literally, I know every ending is different. Sounds dumb. 

But how different is it to end a school year, then to end a relationship?

Huh?

How about that!

I recently finished my first semester of University, and I have to say, I’m very proud of myself, and how it concluded.

I also ended a relationship a few months ago, and it was one of the most tearing experiences I’ve had in a while. 

Why?

Every ending happens when we least or most expect it. 

We create an idea of how we’d like it to end, or what we’d like to see after in ourselves or our situation change.

What we don’t notice, is that the only thing that changes, is that everything changes. 

Honestly it ends upping in a cycle for everything. 

I’ll have another semester, another mid-term, another finals season, another scholar year (if I get to have one lol).

Probably, I would have had another relationship, in a very long time or in a short one (not really), but I got back to what I loved. 

Every ending brings a beginning, but as humans, and rational animals, we are ‘blinded’ to se what everything we have in front of us, is there for. 

Endings are necessary. 

Nothing is meant to be forever in the same place. 

We wouldn’t have evolved if this were the case. 

Ending school, magical feeling of finally being over the thing that stressed you out the most during the year. 

Then what? Summer comes, and it either is super boring, or super fun. 

You choose.

You break up. Maybe, it had also stressed you out a lot in the past months, and now it’s over. But you’re sad. Or at least you’re supposed to be…

Every pain and every joy is felt, perceived, received, and obtained differently. 

I always have a motto, and I like to think that things happen for a reason, and everything hat happens to us, every second, makes us who we are. 

I am not the same person who I was when the pandemic started. I don’t think you reading this are either… at least you shouldn’t men… it’s been almost 2 complete years… still the same? Something’s wrong.

Endings…

I was thinking about it the other day. IT is so complex talking about endings. 

We usually don’t. 

‘Which are your goals for this month/year?’

What beginning are you taking a roll on this month/year, basically. 

We don’t ask, ‘Which habits did you break this last month/year?’. Why?

It’s a process stop doing things, letting them go, not making them part of our life anymore. 

It takes a lot of determination, courage, and reflection sometimes. 

We just ignore that from people, and ask ‘What’s next?., What’s next?, What’s next?, What’s next?…’ and so on.

Stop.

I don’t mean to tell you to focus on the past rather than on the future… nor.

We actually should learn to remain present, where we are, how we are, when we are, who we are – or think we are-, etc. But that’s another topic. 

*The Power of Now from Eckart Tole  talks a lot about this, and it is an incredible book. Totally worth it. 

Give it a try. 😉

You won’t be the same after. NOT JOKING REBECA!

Anyway… the vast possibility of endings.

We can really make out anything out of endings. 

It’s life telling us something is out of our path at the moment, we don’t need that, and if it’s for you, it will eventually come back to you when you are ready to receive it back. 

Not when you want to!

We have a very small capacity to live at ease with this thought sometimes. 

We don’t notice how rushed we live.

When something goes, another thing arrives. 

This is the constant cycle of life. 

It doesn’t stop. 

End begins, beginnings end. Both.

One comes from the other. 

We enjoy the ones that are ‘beneficial’ to us, the ones we have awaited, the ones we want to experience, the ones we created a positive expectative over them. 

What happens when those expectations don’t get to accomplish the idea we had of them? They don’t turn out as you wanted. They take another lead. 

Endings are so unexpected, even when we expect them. 

They are so vague. 

You con navigate through them for a long time. Even if they are not deep endings, they are always meant to leave something, and transform another. 

People die. Their life ends eventually. 

And I won’t trigger warn this, because your life is ending too. 

Death is nowhere but necessary. 

Do you want to live forever? If yes, for what?

You die, and the most beautiful process happens. 

The soul finished their mission. It’s done.

They did everything they had to in this version of themselves. 

I don’t want you to trigger for this. 

I won’t get any deeper into this, to not create a dense topic and blog post. 

But always think about it like they completed everything they had to. And if you feel you didn’t, they’ll do it in their next life. They are on their way to it. 

When someone dies, someone’s born. 

Cycles. 

Endings bring life. 

Life brings endings. 

We don’t understand endings sometimes. We need them.

Why would we want to understand them as well?

We accept things, when they occur in the way we want them to happen.

If it’s how we don’t want them to happen, we get torn up most of the times, even surprised, or amazed.

You grow when you shatter. 

You end a version of yourself. 

An episode of your life. 

A perspective on how to do, be someone or something. 

Endings are magical and tragical. 

They are so so complex. 

Think of how many good and better things began since that thing finished. 

And if you don’t feel like that. I congratulate you. 

You may be going through the thoughts shit out there, you are surviving, reading this today, reminding yourself you are here, doing it, going for it, not giving up, looking up for things to start getting better.

Things only get better at their worse. 

Fact.

Better things come at the end of the thoroughness. 

It’s not forever. It shall pass too. 

See?

Easier said than done.

I know.

I Cantrell you, I’ve had the most difficult, mentally and emotionally, months of my life in 2021. 

And today I feel more free and more happy than I ever have in a very very long time.

At peace with me. 

I congratulate myself for how I dealt with all of it. 

Make something to make yourself feel better, even if you don’t want to. 

You don’t understand how much it can help you. 

End your suffering. 

Your perspective of suffering. Kill it. End it. 

Unlearn what you know, to know better. 

Think of why you think the things you think. What can you do about it?

Something? Do it.

Nothing? Well there it is. Nothing. Live up to it. Learn from it. Be grateful for it. Where is the worry? You can’t do anything. 

You fight this battle on your own. 

You kill your demons on your own. 

Even if no one praises it, or even notices it. You do.

That counts too.

End everything that doesn’t work for you. Figure out why, and end it. Transform it.

All endings, transform and recreate.

Everything changes. 

Endings are good, even if they don’t seem like it. 

You know what. They are not good. They are not bad either. 

They are. They exist. Remove labels or right and wrong. 

This is this. 

Done. 

Ended? Ok. Good? No. Bad? no. It is. 

You have to position yourself in this to take a step back from the situation and see it more clearly. 

Whatever… just wanted to tell you a little bit about my opinion on this topic, that I consider to be so minimally mentioned between people. 

ENDING IS! BUT DON’T AFFECT OTHER’S PEOPLE LIFE’S!

At least don’t make that the intention. 

Other people’s hurt is not in your hands, just as it is not in your hands how you take the situation. 

IT IS on YOU how you lead the situation, and if you do something to intentionally hurt them, or unintentionally, but result to do so, saying sorry is always something you can do.

But understand why you do things. 

Be rational. 

Apply good thinking in your life.

Live love laugh.

Hahahah

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This hole concept I would say I also base it somehow on a book I read recently called ‘They Both Die in The End‘.

It definitely not a book for everyone since it has a lot of delicate topics in it (death, suicide, young pregnancy, grief, blood, explosions, gun violence, hospital, homophobia, mental illness, drowning, etc).

It’s a beautiful but intense book tho.

Long story short, two kids meet one day, and they casually have in mind the same destiny for themselves at the end of the day.

The title says pretty much it, but you have no idea how the book is written, how the characters develop between each other during the plot, how everything evolves to get to the end, how things happen…

Very good book. If you want to read some YA novel soon, try this one, if it’s for you.

It honestly has a big reflection on the importance and impact friendships create in our lives, and overall, on life itself. How valuable life is, and how much it has within it.

Beauty and tragedy.

For those of you who have read it, Rufus and Mateo forever in our hearts :’)!

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In other news, I just began an online business with Arbonne! I’m an independent consultant. Here you can check out their products!

I want to make a post explaining the business, why I started it, how I began, how it is going, what does it consist on, etc…

It’s a little off topic compared to the rest of my blog, but since I’ve created this beautiful community with you readers <3, I appreciate and enjoy sharing the things that are important and influential for me through this media. 

Also, this way you can learn more about it, and maybe even want to take part on it as well !!

I love you.

Enjoy your day.

Have a life you enjoy.

I send you love and light always.

Milena