This is a long message about the author feeling overwhelmed and exhausted by life. They feel like they are going through a transformation and leaving behind an old version of themselves. They are tired of people’s negativity, lack of love, and not being taken seriously. The author wants to live life to the fullest and enjoy every moment. They apologize for being absent but reassure the reader not to worry because everything is going in the right direction. In the end, the author reminds us that life is short, and we should enjoy every second of it.